胡亂理解馬克思

這本綠色封皮，封面印著斗大三個字【馬克思】。我拍掉沉積在上面的灰塵，想想這本是先前在誠品書店買的，當時手上握著折價券，一心只想隨便挑本書買掉，看著看著，這本綠色顯目的書就吸引我的目光，而上面的書名更是讓我下了決心買它。

直到最近一些社會議題的發酵，像是華隆工會罷工事件，突然讓我覺得資本主義的擴張下，人性以嚴然成為金錢權力的犧牲品，也在這一刻讓我想起了這本書。

這是我第一次看哲學相關的書籍。

老實說，看這類型的書還真的挺不是好消化的，畢竟因為學理工的關係，總是希望所讀的東西能在腦袋中具現化出來，而哲學書籍卻是背其道而行，不過我還是把我胡亂看的結果先胡亂的整理下來，也許接觸久了，就可以慢慢修正。


研究馬克思要從他兩個不同時期看起，年輕時的馬克思與成年時的馬克思，這兩者的思想是有差距的。最大的差別應該是成年時的馬克思對政治與經濟方面比較成熟，所以比年輕時的馬克思於理論方面也比較完整。

不過在談馬克思的理論前，我們先來看看當時資本主義下的社會是如何。在文中有談到，所謂的資本主義就是階級制度，因為在利益的驅動下，每個人各司其職，而這種個人的異化造成的結果就是每個人並不是做自己喜歡的事情，而是屈於生存而謀取某一層級的工作，因此這群同文化、同工作內容、同思想的一群人就被歸類為一個階層。而馬克思認為真正的階層在此限制下還未生成，直到階層間彼此有衝突與碰撞，這時才稱為階層。

也因為有階層，有鬥爭，資本主義的本質就是毀滅。

綜觀資本主義的發展自古至今，永遠都是最上一層的色彩越顯鮮明，而這層的人通常也跟政治關係良好，所謂的官商勾結正是如此，然後最底層的階層，也就是所謂的無產階級、普勞階級，總是成為被犧牲的一群人。

這聽起來就像是資本主義是一個肉弱強食的世界，最強最猛的野獸人數不多，但是勢力龐大，而最底層的生產者，瘦弱的小動物，就成為猛獸的每日羔餚。

先胡亂寫到這邊，其實看到目前為止對他的學說還沒有很到位，腦袋就像是有一整片的拼圖，但是東缺西缺的，還看不出自己在拼什麼。其他還有馬克思對個人、自然、社會、歷史等的界定，以及個人對上述每一項之間的關係描述，這些都是他學說的核心，而這邊是寫得最抽象的部分。

What's the best shot

I always wondered why people like to take my photos. It was quite annoying being flashed by the strong light. After that I always felt dizzy, a short period of time seeing nothing but a blank white. Well, I decided to invent a device which could reflect everything applying to me, let the people knew how I felt at that moment.

Chaos

The only sound in this room was the clicking on the keyboard. The only light in this room was the splashing on the screen. I hunched on the chair, looking straight into the virtual world. I adjusted the curtain and peeped outside. I groaned while the blazing sun stung my eyes.

It had been 212 days since that day...

Sex confusion

I found that it was getting easier to see the kiss from lesbians. I just saw one a moment ago on the MRT platform.

Recent status

Useless, nonsense, bored... etc.
That was what I looked like recently.
It seemed like I lost the goal. I had became a guy without soul. I cared about nothing. I had no interest, even playing games could not rouse my interest.
The day is coming,  and I found that I was getting tired about learning.
How could I find any passion which is the spirit of life? What is my interest which could be used to separate the work from life?
Pondering...
Hope the day of realization is not far away.

New hires

The story began when a newcomer joined my team.

"We are going to have some new hires joining our team.", said Albert, "of course, some training courses should be prepared."

The trailing word seems to be a hint to Keven. Seeing he projected the web page on the screen, a table with some course names and week numbers are shown."As you see, the table here shows the courses designed by Gary.", said Keven, "I've arranged the courses to fit the schedule. Any suggestions are welcomed."

"Or we could have new hires to write some tools we need.", continued Tommy.

Same words ringed in my mind arousing the old memory."... write some utilities, such as rich video testbed, or changelog parser...", said Gary. I could not stand anymore. I made sound to attract the attention from others."In my opinion, the training courses should focus on learning the skills they really need in the future. New hires should not ..."

"... should not waste their precious time on helping us develop what we want now.", the sudden exclaim seems to shock everyone and I continued, "Instead, they should learn the primitive, the fundamental skills which will decide what they will become in the following years.", I paused for a second, choosing the right words, and from their eyed I knew they are waiting for my answer. "Design pattern is one of the samples.", these few words seemed to make a perfect echoes.

A prologue is like a seed planted, and the chapters followed moistened it. I had spent few days on pondering what courses should be given so they could have enough skills to the tasks in the future.

The conjured idea was materialized as some documents, and a topic was given to the series - Googo.